Maderville

Who Woulda Thunk It?!
Anyone who knows me has always thought of me as a girls mama. I love little boys but have never thought of myself as a Mama of boys. Now I know plenty of my friends that couldn't imagine their lives with girls. The drama, the frills, the excess of it all. Nope, they like the simple life a boy gives them. I don't know why I thought of myself as soley Girl mama but those days are long behind me. I just wasn't convinced that I could love another child like I did Landry. I heard all throughout my pregnancy that I would but I just couldn't wrap my head around the notion of my heart expanding that much more. I stand corrected. My beautiful son in all of his two weeks of age had taught me yet another lesson about myself. The kind of lessons that only children can teach you. The kind of lesson that normally only happens when you or they are least expecting it or looking for it. I look at this sweet baby boy and think 'WOW, how could I have ever questioned this love' or 'I can't believe I have been missing out on this motherhood business for so long!' I know most of my friends have children much older than mine and most are long past the stage of sleepless nights, constant feedings, diaper after diaper after diaper days and loads of laundry but I am having the time of my life. I have lived the American dream and I try not to let it get too far away from me that that isn't how this life started for me. I am so grateful that I can give my children a life better than I had and certainly better than the one I started out with. I have had my fair share of hardships, heartbreaks and failures but I know that I am a better human being for having lived through them all and still giving the glory to God for the grace and blessings I have been given.