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Baby Boy Mader Update

I've been going to the doctor every single week for a sonogram and a check up ever since my little hospital stay in December. Each week he has scored perfectly on his tests and his fluid levels are in perfect range. Every week I get more and more excited about the idea of becoming a mother to a son. I have never thought of myself as a boy mama but I am finding myself more and more in love with this being inside me. He already has a hold on my heart that is different than Landry's. She is all I ever dreamed of and I hope and pray that he is just a fraction of the child that she is. I know that she has answered the prayers that I didn't even know I prayed. God is good like that. I know that we are soon to be on a roller coaster that we never dreamed of but I have been loving the ride so far. Parenthood is not what I expected...it is so much greater than you could ever give God credit for until you live it. I know that our lives will be full of great joys and great disappointments. It comes with the territory but I don't want to rush it. I want to relish in every single moment that we are blessed with. When you lose a child, it is much easier to remember the small things and how truly special each and every day is....even the ones that are hard, long and sometimes just plain miserable. I can always seem to eek out something good in them especially if they involve a child falling asleep with the peace and tranquility that they are safe, loved and wanted. What more could you give your children? I make this promise to you little boy, I will love you for all the days of your life and give you everything that I am, have and desire for you to the best of my ability. I am not perfect. I will make mistakes and I hope and pray that I am strong enough to say I am sorry when I should and to stand firm when I have to. I already know that you make me a better mother just like your sisters have. Thank you for giving me an immeasurable gift, my sweet son. I cannot wait to meet you.