Cohen Mader 02.05.10 from Jeanelle Caraway on Vimeo.
Cohen Michael Mader
I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was incredibly uncomfortable and knew that I was probably not going to make it to my scheduled delivery 
date on the 11th. I called the 
doctors office at 6:3o am and I was told to show up at 8:30 to see Dr. Bush when the clinic opened. I went in to panic mode trying to finish up getting my bags packed and Landry packed up just in case. I immediately called MoMo and Pa Pa to let them know that we might be needing them and they hopped in the car and were ther
e before we were. Angels wings are hiding under their shirts...I just know it. We got into see Dr. Bush and he checked me and sent me on to the hospital to be monitored. He wouldn't commit to delivering me that day but no sooner had we arrived and got me hooked up had a nurse poked her head in my room and said that he would be there at noon to deliver me. Immediately, a rush of emotions took over and I looked at Mike and said this is it. We had been deliberating on whether or not I was going to get a tuba ligation while we there knowing that we would not be having any more children. We were literally in the operating room and I was lying on the table signing the papers. It was a good decision and I a
m glad we did it. It is a little emotional because it is so permanent but it made the most sense for me to have it done while he was in there. The two hours seemed to fly by as the nurses came in and out prepping me for my scheduled Cesarean section. I made a few calls to
let everyone know that I was going to soon be delivering my first and only son. Wow! Me the mama of a boy....it still makes me shake my head. As they wheeled me back I thought about how much our lives were going to change. The change that Landry was going to go through made me a little sad for her and the confusion that will follow but happy that she will not be left alone in this world when we are not here any longer. I have always thought that 3 or 4 children was the perfect number. I got my 3 but not in the way I thought I would. Landry is going to be a great big sister once she figures out what her roll is and where her place is. This is it...the last minute of the world as we have known it since she got here. Good things are just around the corner. I can feel it.
date on the 11th. I called the 
doctors office at 6:3o am and I was told to show up at 8:30 to see Dr. Bush when the clinic opened. I went in to panic mode trying to finish up getting my bags packed and Landry packed up just in case. I immediately called MoMo and Pa Pa to let them know that we might be needing them and they hopped in the car and were ther
e before we were. Angels wings are hiding under their shirts...I just know it. We got into see Dr. Bush and he checked me and sent me on to the hospital to be monitored. He wouldn't commit to delivering me that day but no sooner had we arrived and got me hooked up had a nurse poked her head in my room and said that he would be there at noon to deliver me. Immediately, a rush of emotions took over and I looked at Mike and said this is it. We had been deliberating on whether or not I was going to get a tuba ligation while we there knowing that we would not be having any more children. We were literally in the operating room and I was lying on the table signing the papers. It was a good decision and I a
m glad we did it. It is a little emotional because it is so permanent but it made the most sense for me to have it done while he was in there. The two hours seemed to fly by as the nurses came in and out prepping me for my scheduled Cesarean section. I made a few calls to
let everyone know that I was going to soon be delivering my first and only son. Wow! Me the mama of a boy....it still makes me shake my head. As they wheeled me back I thought about how much our lives were going to change. The change that Landry was going to go through made me a little sad for her and the confusion that will follow but happy that she will not be left alone in this world when we are not here any longer. I have always thought that 3 or 4 children was the perfect number. I got my 3 but not in the way I thought I would. Landry is going to be a great big sister once she figures out what her roll is and where her place is. This is it...the last minute of the world as we have known it since she got here. Good things are just around the corner. I can feel it.I was given a spinal block and was soon underway of adding to our almost perfect family. The first time I heard his little cry was the equally matched to the most wonderful sound I have ever heard. The living, breathing first sounds of my children will never, ever be matched again. They will always be the greatest melodies that my ears 
will ever hear. If you have ever lost a child before they were born, you live for the moment you hear that sound. All of the 'I love you's' in the world can't rival that because it was like Jesus saying I loved you so much I would die for you all over again. The next time you hear a new born baby's first cry, think about that. I have
thought about it ever since March 12th when I know before then, I took it for granted. Cohen Michael Mader entered the world on February 5th at 12:27 pm. He was a whopping 8 pounds 10 ounces and 21 inches long! No wonder I was so uncomfortable! He looked just like Landry and had a head full of dark brown hair. I was able to see him for a few minutes, and then he was carted off to be cleaned up and his Daddy whisked him away to be greeted by his sister and Godparents. I stayed in surgery for a little while longer and found myself in a recovery area and then moved to my room. Landry was going to spend a few days with MoMo and PaPa and we got settled in. I couldn't wait to get my hands on him and check over every square inch of him. Upon a very thorough inspection, he is perfect. He has the prettiest skin and sweetest little face. I am in love....all over again.
will ever hear. If you have ever lost a child before they were born, you live for the moment you hear that sound. All of the 'I love you's' in the world can't rival that because it was like Jesus saying I loved you so much I would die for you all over again. The next time you hear a new born baby's first cry, think about that. I have
thought about it ever since March 12th when I know before then, I took it for granted. Cohen Michael Mader entered the world on February 5th at 12:27 pm. He was a whopping 8 pounds 10 ounces and 21 inches long! No wonder I was so uncomfortable! He looked just like Landry and had a head full of dark brown hair. I was able to see him for a few minutes, and then he was carted off to be cleaned up and his Daddy whisked him away to be greeted by his sister and Godparents. I stayed in surgery for a little while longer and found myself in a recovery area and then moved to my room. Landry was going to spend a few days with MoMo and PaPa and we got settled in. I couldn't wait to get my hands on him and check over every square inch of him. Upon a very thorough inspection, he is perfect. He has the prettiest skin and sweetest little face. I am in love....all over again. Second, third...fourth babies are different. You don't get as many visitors at the hospital but you get a lot more food delivered to your house! It has been nice to have a trickle of visitors come visit bearing dinner!
Cohen, I had planned on writing you a letter before you got here but it's too late for that now. I will write down some more thoughts as
I get to know you, my sweet son and hopefully you will know just how I feel about you in the upcoming posts. I have always been told the that love between a son and a Mother was different. I didn't really buy into that until I heard your first cry and then I knew exactly what everyone was trying to tell me was the gospel truth. I love you both equally but there is something so unique and beautiful about each one of you. I am a huge fan of experiencing it first hand. Thank you for showing me yet another kind of love....I am totally smitten.
I get to know you, my sweet son and hopefully you will know just how I feel about you in the upcoming posts. I have always been told the that love between a son and a Mother was different. I didn't really buy into that until I heard your first cry and then I knew exactly what everyone was trying to tell me was the gospel truth. I love you both equally but there is something so unique and beautiful about each one of you. I am a huge fan of experiencing it first hand. Thank you for showing me yet another kind of love....I am totally smitten.
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Congratulations! A Super Bowl win, Valentine's Day, Mardi Gras and a baby to boot! Life really doesn't get any better than the one you're living right now. I especially love the last picture with the enthralled big sister.
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