Maderville

My sweet sweet boy....
Who knew that those boys were so darn sweet!? I melt when I see that sweet little face smiling back at me. I can send him into a fit of laughter just by giving him the 'tickle bugs' sign. I just love it. I was around a little 2 month old the other day and while I miss my little Cohen at that age I am really enjoying this interactive, engaged stage that he is in. Landry is a little jealous these days and shows her muscle when it comes to claiming her territory on her toys. She is such a giving, compliant child most of the time. Cohen has just tested the limits of her two year old patience.

I love, love being the mother of these two babies. I miss my Sophie every single day and it makes me so sad to think about what I am missing with her. I got really choked up the other day when I saw this video of a little boy who had Down Syndrome that scored a touchdown on his football team. I was so touched knowing that all of these people allowed this special child to have a moment that he will never forget. It was a great lesson to those who were a part of it but it was also a lesson to those who witnessed it. I just pray that every special needs child out there has that moment of victory in their lives at some point. I always wonder what kind of mother I would have been to a child with special needs. I know that she would have been well taken care of and that she would have been loved. I am so grateful that she is with God and that I don't EVER have to worry about her. If I wasn't a believer I really don't know what I would do. I couldn't imagine the pain I would still be in if it weren't for my faith. IT sustains me and keeps me sane until the day we will reunite again. With that comfort I can raise those sweet babies I have here and know that there will be a beautiful eternity waiting for me one day. I really didn't mean to get all teary writing this post but I do miss my girl...as much as I love Landry and Cohen I cannot help but to feel a sense of emptiness when it comes to Sophie. She made me a mommy first and that place will never be taken from her.