Maderville

Mother
Today would have been my mothers 72nd birthday but she left us 7 1/2 years ago. I missed her when I lost Sophie in such a heart wrenching way that I began to question how I would handle motherhood when I finally got to experience it. Fortunately, the arrival of Landry created in me a clean heart and I was renewed. That verse comes from a song we sing at VBS and it is so true. The birth of Landry healed me more in a matter of minutes than a lifetime without her would have in regard to Sophie but on the flip side, my pain where my mother was concerned was magnified. It wasn't something I ever expected but it was real and unavoidable. I tried to put it behind me and pretend that her lack of presence didn't bother me but it really does. I miss not having a mother to share my life's blessings with. She was responsible for so many of my other blessings that it only seems natural that I want to share with her the people that I love so much. It makes me sad that she didn't get to know most of her grandchildren. Since she's been gone there have been 7 grandchildren and 4 great-grandchildren born. I can't imagine how full her life would have been had she been able to experience these beautiful children. Mother, I know that God created in you a clean heart and that you were supremely renewed. I couldn't ask for a better birthday than that for you. I pray that you are complete and that your heart is whole again. I miss you as a mother, a friend, a child and a child's mother. May you Rest in Peace.