Maderville

Mother's Day 2009
I have a different perspective on this holiday and it's all because of Him and a little girl named Landry. For the past several years...7 to be exact...I have had a really bad attitude about it. Last year was pretty good but still stung me pretty hard when it came to Sophie. This year was different. I got to enjoy the fruit of being a mother in a totally different way and I also found some forgiveness that I didn't know I needed to give. It is a bittersweet holiday for me. No mother of my own and no Sophie...how does two bads get trumped by a good? Well it does and it did this year. It's even easier if you have a Landry like my Landry. She makes lots of pains go away and lots of heart breaks healed. How does seven years of heartache just go away all of the sudden. Even I don't know but it just did and that is all I care about. I credit her for so much of my happiness but the truth of it is that God has allowed me to have her, my husband and my family so He gets the credit today. He made me a mother...not her and not Mike. God did so ---'GOD, I'm giving you hugs, kudos and a huge high five today'. Is that appropriate? I don't know but if HE were here and I had the chance to give props for today I would hug Him and give Him a high five for this glorious life I live. I think He would want me to keep it real so that's what I would do.
Today, I got to sleep in...til 9am! Woo hoo! Mike took Landry to the other side of the house and I enjoyed a rare morning sleeping in until I got up. We got ready for church and afterward we went by Sophie's grave and to my sweet surprise there was a beautiful bouquet of fresh flowers in her vase and a new wind chime hanging. They were from Landry(via her Daddy) and thanks to her babysitter Ashton, aka 'Sha Sha', my first piece of art. I loved it! Then, in an attempt to keep the Bug happy, we went to Pizza Inn for lunch. It was a success because she loves the salad bar and the occasional bite of pizza. Isn't it funny how those fancy lunches and dinners are just not that important anymore. If she isn't going to be happy then I simply won't even consider it. I guess I really AM a mama! She ate like a champ and then it was home and off to nap time. The whole Mader family took a nice long nap and Mike even got up with her when she got up. (I could get used to this!) He got her pool ready and she went swimming for the first time this year and she LOVED it! She kept calling it a 'bath' so we tried to get her to use the word 'pool' and she finally obliged. She slid down the 'siiide' and played with her 'toiz'! She also has been letting me put her on her back in the tub so she can float while I hold her up. She had no problem doing the same in the pool. She is the most trusting child. I can ask her if she wants to float and she rolls right over and lets me do my thing. She loves the praise and really responds to in almost every situation. All in all we had a really fantastic day. I am so blessed...more than I deserve but truly, truly blessed. Thank you God for my life. Thank you for taking care of my Sophie and my Mother and for making them both whole and perfect again.