Maderville

Woe is me....
I feel like a slacker. A friend of mine told me that I needed to clean my house and that it was wearing HER out. She even offered to come clean it for me...and she was serious. HMMM. What do I say to that other than, yes, I know it isn't as clean as it was BL(before Landry) and no, it wasn't as picked up as it was BL, and no, I don't get nearly as much done in a day like I did BL, and yes, I wish I looked as put together as I used to look before BL. Don't get me wrong, if anyone knows me, my house isn't THAT bad. Never has been...never will be. It's just not up to the standard that I normally have it. So shame got the best of me and today, instead of hanging out with Landry, I cleaned. I scrubbed cabinets and all the floors, dusted, got cobwebs from my 14 foot ceilings...urgh!, sweeped and sprayed off the back patio, finished washing all of the outside windows(I started them the other day), did laundry, helped a friend plan a few aspects of her wedding, talked to a florist, looked up wedding gifts for a soon to be married friend, handled a work related calamity, dealt with the mortgage company...it only took FOREVER over the phone...Lord, help me!, fed Landry 4 times, changed her diaper 9 times, changed her twice and gave her a bath, sterilized and made her bottles for tomorrow, cleaned the kitchen and refrigerator, made a new flower arrangement for Sophie's grave and planned an entire party with a friend of mine all while I was trying to tend to Landry and let her know I was still around. She took two very short naps...25 and 45 minutes respectively. I was beat by the end of the day and now here I am. BTW, I didn't leave 'Took a shower' off accidentally either. Never happened.
My house keeper that used to come every other week up and quit after almost 3 years....I know, I know...woe is me. It was so nice to know you had a schedule of when you had to get your house in order so SHE could get my house in order. It is so hard to find someone you trust and that will CONTINUALLY do good work. She started having issues with the good work part but I never complained. I treated her like a friend...not someone who worked for me. I did nice things for her and fed her while she was here. I gave her birthday presents and generous Christmas bonuses. I sent happies home for her daughter and I paid her well. Mike and I even were going to pay for her to start Dental Hygiene School even though that would have meant we would surely lose her. She missed the deadline and things happened in her life that kept her from going but that's not the point. I wanted good things for her and she just up and left. She started complaining about the cost of gas and that it was kind of far to drive(it was 20 miles). Is that any reason to quit? I would have given her more gas money if it would have kept her here. I guess this just makes me sad because she never gave me a reason. She just left and it leaves me feeling like there is some unfinished business to attend to plus she still has a key to my house. I think the thing that really upsets me the most is that she watched Landry on the off week for an afternoon so I could get some errands ran and appointments made. She was one of the first people I ever trusted with my child. I know that doesn't mean much to some people but it means A LOT to me. Landry loved her and she seemed to love her too. I guess I"ll just never understand what makes people tick.
Oh well, back to my cleaning....after I did all of that I looked around and it didn't look like I had even made much of a dent in it. The things I did won't ever get noticed for the good...only the bad. Isn't that sad? I RARELY ever do this but I put Landry in front of a Baby Einstein video (twice)today and let her go comatose to it. I felt like crap. I thought to myself, if my house looks a little less than perfect then I am going to have to deal with it because spending my day with Landry is a whole lot more important than scrubbing the finger prints off the microwave. She got cranky toward the end of the day because I think she was upset with me for pretty much ignoring her for a good portion of the day. Clean or not, that ain't happening again. I'm sorry sweet girl...guess we'll just have to be slobs until I find someone else or you're in college.